I am back.

So, I have decided to start writing in this blog again.

I know I have neglected my blog a lot, but I am determined to do a better job.

Anyway, so many changes have occurred in the past year or so. Since it is the new year, (2012 HOLLAAAA) I feel it to be necessary to reflect back on 2011.

I would love to say that this year was amazing, but unfortunately, it was far from that. It would take too long to write out everything, and I am sure that would not be very entertaining... So let's just say that it was filled with drama, tears, deaths, heartbreak, and sadness. Oh god, that sounds a bit dramatic. I may be a bit of a baby, but I am not exaggerating when I say that this year was hard.

I am not sad to say goodbye to 2011.

2012 holds so much for me.

• Graduating High School
• Moving away from my family
• Turning eighteen
• Hopefully, growing as a person.

I only have a little less than five months left of high school, I could not be more excited for school to be over with.

2012 NEW YEARS RESOLUTION:

My one and only resolution, to be happy.

Simple enough, right?

I have faith in this year.

Oh, hey there, old friend.

So, it's been a minute since I have written a blog... but I feel like it's time. Mostly due to today being the first Sunday I have had in awhile being spent alone. I have a few things to bitch about...

1) Sometimes I feel like I am the only one who cares. For example, if you tell someone that you are coming to get them... then all of a sudden you have something better to do, and you go do it without letting the second person know... that is extremely shitty, and shows a lack of care. Maybe I'm reading into it too much.

2) If you know me at all, you know I have an extreme hate for a certain family member of mine. I have every reason in the world to feel the way I do. I make every effort I can to stay out of his way, but it seems to me that he makes every effort to stay IN my way. I feel like he actuallyenjoys it. I just want him out of my life, I'm tired of fighting.

3) Tomorrow is my first day back at the high school. I have spent the last semester of my school career attending boot school, which I must say was a definite learning experience... that I do not ever want to have to go through again. I am just a little bit nervous because somehow, I have lost most every friend in the past four months. I really don't want to be the girl without any friends.

I just really need to start being more self-centered. I am always so worried about everyone elses' happiness that I forget about my own. As of now, Ima do me... and everyone else can do them.

I am free.

Sisterly Love.

My sister,Christina is the only one that has really stuck around consistently in my life. Every since I was young I have looked up to her more than anyone else. Now that I am older I am able to see,and appreciate her accomplishments better than before. She has overcome everything that I hope to.
I am constantly being pushed by her to do better,and not fall into the pit hole of the small town I currently reside in. Although,at times,it is hard to see that she means well,and just wants the best for me,I am glad I have her in my life. I feel if I did not have her to make sure I stay on track I would be far worse off than I already am. I love her so much,and am eternally grateful to have a sister such as her.

Slipped Away.

I miss my mom,more than anything.I miss my happy,silly mother.I recently told her I wanted nothing more to do with her.I love her so much.I just can't stand seeing her like this,so the only thing I know to do is not have her in my life.I am so worried about my mom.I just want her to be happy,because honestly,when it comes down to it...if she's not happy,then neither am I.It really sucks,because I don't know if she will ever be happy.
Mom-If you're reading this,I love you more than anything,and I am so sorry for everything.Please help yourself.

2010 Is here.

2009 could possibly have been one of the most difficult years of my life.
So much happened in that year.
I became a stronger person because of it,and I will not dwell over anything that occurred..It's a new year,and I will do everything I can to make this year amazing.
2010 New year Resolutions:
1)Become more aware of current world issues.
2)Get involved in the community.
3)Spend more time with others,and less time on the internet.
4)Become more independent.

Take a step back.

Sometimes I wonder If my life is real.
Some of the incidents that occur in my life just do not make sense.I suppose that is reality for you.I just feel so disconnected with the world.Watching the news and seeing everything that is happening in the world,then looking at my own life and realizing what I am going through is nothing compared to some of the obstacles others are having to face.I think it's just easy for each one of us to pretend that what we are going through is more severe,or important than the rest of the populations.Maybe,This is why we have such a difficult time keeping order within society.We all want to be heard,but it's impossible for each one of us to give our opinion on current events.
I just think we all should take a step back from our life,and our life events,and look around us...
Life is beautiful,and if you spend your entire lifetime worrying about you,and only you,then your life will be just one big complex mess.